Posted in Self Help, Social Behavior, Thoughts

Introversion

Well it’s another walk on a familiar lane. And who better to guide you through this site than the biggest fan of introversion. Hello, introvert here, and allow me (Sonic) to shine some light upon this nightly lane and be-hold by the captivating wonders of this social behavior. Rudimentarily, introversion is a reticent individual that abstains from camaraderie and social enterprises. That’s not0 my definition. Speaking from tons of experience, introversion is undoubtedly a behavior that is misunderstood by many with regards to the repercussions and the social image of reticent behavior.

Misunderstanding, of individual definitions of introversion, by others is omnipresent. Ever had an indescribable thought and the gradual increase of frustration due to the  misunderstanding from the other person? This accurately describes my agitated emotional state from the misunderstanding from others. Which is why my tendency to abstain from social confrontation automatically shifts into gear. Constantly, when I was participating in V3 (which is a transformational workshop), I was told to converse with others, to engage anyone for experiential gain. Of course there is nothing wrong with declining engagement with others; However, I was perfectly capable as well as have an exceptional aptitude for social interaction (or so I like to think). Here’s where my doubt began to make frequent visits. At the beginning of the 3 day workshop, the group of 31 attendees, were sub-divided into 6 groups of 5. Each group had a meticulously tuned curriculum with objectives expanding from social engagements to open personal deep thought discussions. One particular objective required two groups, so of the 6 groups, we were accumulated into 2 groups. One group diverged and was knowingly settled into a separate room. After every element was structured properly, we began our tasks. One of the staff members came into the room, and asked us a problem about society. The group and I, were to embark in a path to a solution of the social problem. The staff member walks out the room and returns 5 minutes later, while we the group, discussed the solution. We halt and the staff asks us, have we came to a conclusion. We agree to the solution and raised our hands to notify the staff about the conclusion. However, the staff with an obvious response stated that we were not in agreement and walked out. We attempted several times finalize the agreement, and to no avail. Finally the exercise concluded and we never understood why we couldn’t even solve the first of the 10 social problems. Want the know why we couldn’t solve the first social problem? I promise you, it will shock you. Apparently, I and two others were the culprits responsible for the lack of agreement between the group. When everyone would raise their hands, I wouldn’t agree to the stated solution. Fundamentally, I didn’t raise my hand, so I didn’t agree and therefore we could never progress. After this great unveiling, the group began to construct prejudgments about my introverted nature. Since, I didn’t want to engage in these tasks. My fellow colleagues began to press issues about me being shy, insecure. They attempted to comfort me, when I didn’t even want any comfort. This workshop was 12 hours a day, for 3 days. That’s an overabundant of time During this time, I was told antithetical statements; instead of what I wanted to attain from the workshop, which was inspiration, and more confidence. Instead, I began to think what they had told me was true. It’s not like I had a choice, because the subconscious mind is very sensitive to information and pragmatically, being told the antithetical wasn’t constructing a firm, proactive personality. I remember, telling myself, they don’t understand. I choose not to participate, since I feel like theres no need for me to raise my hand. I help construct a solution, I don’t need to raise my hand to agree that this might work. It’s a solution, It couldn’t have been accomplished any faster without the energy we all invested in. Instead, criticized for the hand issue. Oh well, it may seem like a innocuous nuance, but insidious forces inhabit every abstract concept so be aware. Especially if others have placed prejudgements on who you could possibly be.

By the way, the company as well as my colleagues continued to press the issue about my introversion, and applied psychological tactics to persuade me into purchasing the advance course. The course was $600. Thanks to my rational thinking, and independence I declined the tempting offer. Imagine having more than 10 of your friends, and the whole 20 staff company attempting to persuade you, just one person against 30 people to purchase a lost investment. The tactics they would use. Wow, Im astonished really. V3 No longer operates, I speculate that maybe, their tactics were discovered, and rational people began to unveil the worth of the company. Anyways, let’s move on.

Everyone has this social image and idea of what an introvert represents. This is far from the truth I believe. Simply, introversion is an equivocal term. Like wikipedia, anyone can alter it’s definition, and many will adopt this definition as there own idea. It’s a mental heuristic, I guess some humans will do anything to attenuate time for self-gratification, but now I’m just subjectively firing the short-comings of some humans. Allow me to digress. Like I mentioned earlier, social images confine tolerance and prudence and obscures the true intentions of many introverts. Some introverts, are quiet, observant, while others are loud, and love the reaction of other social members.

So is there really such a thing as an introvert? If anything, I believe we are all ambiverts. Let’s eliminate ambivert, introvert, extrovert. Instead, Everyone has many similar traits, others posses more skill in certain aspects that work in junction with other less attributed skills. However, like I mentioned earlier, Everyone has their own interpretation. This is a free thinking blog, I encourage you to interpret and define. And with that I will leave you with this. Guys I hope you enjoyed this blogged, I work really hard to make these blogs, So if you take the time to read them, I really thank you for giving me your time and your chance. Thanks again, I love you guys, be safe, and Ill see you guys next blog.

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Posted in Self Help, Thoughts

Consistency

If there was any default behavior that I would have love to innately possess, it would be consistency. Few people innately possess consistency, and others through experience and conflict. I had to discipline myself to attain consistency, and yet, it’s far from an instinctual behavior. Although my observations are bred from empiricism, arguably, consistency is a disciplinary conduct that affects our progression in a versatile manner.

Ideally, consistency is applied in pursuit of our endeavors. Reiteration of any craft can be instinctually performed and precisely executed. For instance, Since the conception of blogging, this dominant tendency to utter advance vocabulary has manifested from the consistency of performance. The flow is executed nicely, and erroneous utterances have diminished due to consistency. Interesting right? Bare in mind, that I have invested tons of time into my word bank. Since my 10th grade year in high school, I have consistently practiced a new word daily. However, of course my word bank lied dormant for years, since articulation was inhibited due to my introversion. It’s crucial to remain consistent throughout any pursuit. In essence, This behavior can also adapt to many other daily objectives. Since the consistency of my blogging, I have remain consistent in many areas in my life. I produce more concept art pieces and produce a lot more music; and I can honestly say that for the first time, I really do feel like I will unlock many achievements. I’ve been elated and have consistently thought of ideas that extent my goals into distant roads. As long as I continue to construct the road ahead of me, theres no where I can settle.

Thanks again for being apart of the experience, Guys, seriously I love you guys, be safe, and stay consistent, It’s difficult to maintain a steady flow, but once you have momentum, continue to apply force. you’ll arrive at your destination in no time. Until next time I’ll see you later.

 

Soniclevels

Posted in Thoughts

I’m Exhausted!!!

As I am typing this, I am extremely exhausted. I was working in construction all day. Holding a grinder for hours on end. The vibrations disrupt my nerves, since using a grinder grinds on stone which is densely solid. I feel at any moment, I will hit the bed and sleep for an entire Venus day. Venus has the longest day of any planet with a duration of 243 earth days; This is longer than its orbit!, IT’S ORBIT! with a duration of 224 earth days. Anyways, I am elated to find that I’m committed to blogging even when my mental gauge has nearly reached empty. I want to make a last effort, and this is it. My apologies, I cannot think of a topic to cover, the computer screen is indistinctly visible and my eyes continue to drop. It has taken me about forty minutes to write out this blog. Well, I’ll leave it at this. Once again my friends, I sincerely apologize for the unprepared blog. But I thought that maybe I should make my presents known even if it’s not a dedicated blog. Thanks again my friends for reading up. I’ll have a fresh idea tomorrow. Goodnight everyone, sweet dreams. Much love to you all.

Posted in Drawing, Self Help, Thoughts

Quality

“What’s up ladies and gentlemen” – how informal-formal writing – Nonetheless, What’s up ladies and gentlemen. Quality, I want to discuss it, because I uploaded a video yesterday. One subjective nuance that irritatingly delineated from the video, was the unpleasant quality. Truly a testament to my effort. Though abashed I want to state that “quality” is a key ingredient in my career as an artist. Lackluster is a plague of unfathomable repercussion; bear this in mind, No one will appreciate my efforts, low quality appeals as if I’m a charlatan, and most importantly I add no value to peoples lives. I want my barren personality to blossom into an expansive field of flowers with a beautiful sun, a lens flare, and a scenery with the breeze stroking the flowers, the horizon is aesthetically ineffable. Tranquil and aesthetically pleasing is a tiny fraction of the description, I would say. But I digress, as monotonous and nondescript as I am, I can still express emotional sense in many variants of art. It’s just the effort of plugging quality into the equation. I don’t want other artist to look up to me, rather, I want to distribute great ideas, so then other’s who are brighter than myself, shine through darker areas and unveil horizons that transcend the current limit.  however, If my production doesn’t consist of quality, then I can’t progress, since my work doesn’t inspire me to continue breaking limits. It’s about me first, than the others, polishing my work before proceeding with any other objectives is priority.

 

This is my drawing, it’s a bit lackluster; fragments of articulation are deficiently expressed via color, body proportions, and clothing. Subjectively, the concept piece communicates rushed.Screen Shot 2017-11-16 at 7.41.16 PM.png

it resembles early Dragon Ball Super quality

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I mean come on, even Goku’s face is saying “Dafuq”?

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To conclude my concerns, to communicate “quality” effectively, it needs to be executed well, polish subjective flaws, and align the art piece with your personal vision. Then you’re voice will echo through the clutter of abysmal content that inhabits every virtual platform of our world.

An epilogue for my guests:

Much appreciation for your support, it means the world to me, that everyone of you guys read my blogs. I’m elated to find that, there are people that actually acknowledge my thoughts. Thank you guys so much!! seriously. . .  Well, that’s it for today, Much love to all my peeps, stay safe, say no to drugs, and I’ll see you guys next time!!!

 

Sonic Levels

 

Posted in Thoughts

My Video is Complete

Finally, my video is complete. Believe me, this isn’t the reason why I’m elated. I’m overwhelmed with joy because I’m experiencing fulfillment. I know the path I’m currently walking, is a path that induces, curiosity as well as fulfillment and accomplishment. I’ve had a youtube channel for about 3 years and every attempt has been a failure to prosper; However, never have I experienced what I’m currently experiencing. This time I really feel the journey is animated, and longing for manifestation. After my video is complete I will upload it with content and eagerly proceed undertaking the next objective. Wanted to share that, up to date status of my endeavor and my current position. Thanks again for reading. I send you whole hearted sincere love, be safe, and remember you can fly, you just have to believe.

 

Sonic Levels

Posted in Thoughts

Finally, My First Drawing Video

I’m excited to share this spectacular news. Finally, the tree of effort has bear the fruit of my labor. Now, I can upload videos of every pencil depiction that wonderfully illustrates my conceptual caricatures. I have been longing for an application capable of recording my efforts in conceptual art. My plan is to upload, 2 – 3 times a week on youtube and on my website. I’ll upload cartoon concepts, graffiti pieces and other aesthetically pleasing conceptions. Ill continue my efforts in anime sketching and techniques – as well as –environmental concepts. I’m excited to have reached the horizon and witness the panoramic view of artistic cultivation. Together, let’s proceed with the odyssey of my endeavor and together let’s conquer the uncharted motherland of concept art.

Posted in Announcement

Things Change

Greetings friends, hopefully all of you are having a great day. Now, I’ll be working on a couple projects, and so I’ll be uploading 2-3 blogs every week. And if this rhythm flows well, then I’ll permanently adopt it. For now my friends, Ill upload a blog tomorrow since I want others to see this post. I’ll see you all tomorrow, if strangers offer candy make sure you steal it, not graciously take it. Be safe, and much love.

 

Sonic Levels

Posted in Uncategorized

No Blog

I’ll construct a blog tomorrow since today my day is loaded with objectives. I don’t upload Saturday and Sunday, so this is one exception. Thanks again for the support and much love my readers.

Posted in Uncategorized

The Black Knight Satellite

I was reading upon the shores of theories that wash up from time to time. Sometimes you find collateral that is ardently express and can’t help but be perceptively enticed. Ever heard of an obscured black solid “satellite” that enigmatically orbits earth. As eerie as this may sound, some people believe the satellite is of extra-terrestial origin and speaks volume of an insidious itinerary of extra-terrestrial efforts. The findings are enigmatic, however–statistically– the Black Knight satellite can very well be space junk, since space junk varies in size and is proven that this junk orbits the planets atmosphere. Here are a few of illustrations that I would like to present to you, check it out.

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Scrutinize this image of the satellite and inform me otherwise that this doesn’t look like a Black Hefty bag.Hefty bag.jpg

 

It appears to be a giant Hefty bag with half a car bumper inside. On a serious note however, It’s most likely a space blanket or thermal blanket, which ever variation. Thermal Blanket.jpgEssentially, These blankets are utilized for thermal control and other relevant thermal experiences. Spacecrafts utilize these blankets – so in contrast – the scale definitely leans more towards a spacecraft releasing this object into orbit – than a 13,000 year old satellite, with extraterrestrial origins that was hypothesis and ornamentally concocted via irrelevant sources. Just thought that I should hold up one finger, halt, and question the validity of this enticing theory. I call bulls**t and used wikipedia as a source; even if wikipedia is an unreliable source of information, formal argument will rebuttal any claims about the satellites origins, age, purpose, or even conspiracy theory. Unless experimentation has been conducted on the satellite and can prove these far fetched claims, than it’s inane to audaciously state otherwise.

P.S Maybe I shouldn’t be critical. After all, these speculations allow for camaraderie merriment. Since I’m an introvert and loner, I tend to question claims that deem suspicious – and in due course – insensitively spoil the glee of thrill seeking camaraderie or individuals. My sincere apologies if I spoil your hunger for artificial delectable dishes. Just stating and giving my two cent into the roller coster of this matter.

Anyways, I hope you enjoyed the blog today. Many thanks for your attention and sparing your time to read my spoiled thoughts into enticing conspiracies. Hopefully you can forgive me, for refuting certain claims on this theory of the Black Knight satellite. And thats all for today. I love you guys, and I’ll drop another blog tomorrow. Stay safe and much love.

 

Sonic Levels

 

Sources – https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Black_Knight_satellite_conspiracy_theory

Posted in Drawing, Self Help

How I Began Drawing

Greetings once again, I hope all of you guys are doing well. I’ll elaborate on my experiences as an artist in this blog, since I stated that I would be typing up this blog, so let’s begin.

My interest in art began to manifest one day in high school, in 9th grade. I was deplorably bored in english class while viewing a couple pages in a magazine for time sakes. One particular page caught my sight, and my viewing pleasure evolved indulgently. As I marveled at the art pieces, my shifting paradigm began to develop a mental gymnastic known as, daydreaming. Daydreaming became my favorite activity, even competing against masturbation. In sequence, daydreaming would progress into drawing, and in due course conquer almost every sense of my perception. Finally after the revolution, drawing became the dictator of my drive and pragmatically every action was subjected to it’s essence. Every thought I conceived of was an amalgam of artistic insight and daily tasks. Recently, while completing domestic work, I became intrigued in a caricature that I had picked up from the floor. I began to scrutinize the figure and conceptualized a cartoon portrayal of a dragon. This figure below, is a conception of the dragon that manifested from the toy caricature. IMG_0543.JPGInteresting right? That’s the amalgam of domestic work and artistry. However, back in high-school, my awareness was infrequently available. Imagine applying artistic insight in every act you engage in. The conception of cartoon portrayals and graffiti pieces were overabundantly produced via daily tasks, that obscurity was casted over my prudence, and ultimately rendering my 9th, 10th, and 11th grade years a waste of academia. Every perceived idea or moment, was immediately commingle with artistry. The cravings of sketching override every stipulation I made with my counselor, which in due course, expelled me from traditional schooling and located me into a academic rehabilitation center where outbreaks of power hungry student primates fought for territories they didn’t even own. Academic objectives were futile. Teachers rarely taught any subject. Most teachers possessed the luxury of free time; however, two teachers out of ten, were constantly engaging in personal conversations over the phone with what I can only presume to be colleges or acquaintances. My unquenchable thirst for conceptual art began to diminished as I overviewed the domain of students with lackluster abilities. I felt that I had hit a low denominator in my life. My insufficient effectiveness to steer my life boat towards the motherland of success. What an abysmal, contemptible, disappointment I was to my name. Nonetheless, this center was the domain of ineffective students.

Very few students had purpose in that school. Very few were astute, intelligent free thinkers that were only attending school because of law abiding parents. Those were the individuals I was attracted to. As my artistic drive gradually diminished, my new camaraderie of friends, realized my potential and acted to challenge my skills. Sure enough, my skills proved to reiterate a lust of meticulous skills that would have me recognized by students in the academic rehabilitation center. Those were the days I felt a resonance of appreciation, constantly praise for a skill I loved. In contrast, the school’s methods for encouraging and inspiring were severe. In retrospect, there was this one moment where ( I’m not racist at all ) I meticulously drew a Hitler duck in pencil. It was compelling in it’s own respect, and many students where gunning to steal it. Of course, someone stole the bit of art and the culprit responsible never faced condemnation for his/her actions. However, it didn’t matter to me, the thought of someone stealing the art piece just sat well with me, since I knew it would be appreciated. Maybe appreciated for the wrong reason, but at least value the artwork in some sense, since art is perceived differently with every viewer. Fast-forward a couple years, and art has solidified it’s nature into my psyche. I try to sketch something emotionally relevant everyday, but other endeavors tend to squeeze into my schedule sometimes. I love to sketch, I love to approach the abstract, and visually construct it into intricate lines. One think is for sure. With the history, and everything I’ve been through with this skill. I never want to abandon my skill to draw.

I hope you guys enjoyed my story. Retrospect and analyze your history endeavor you pursued, and remember those moments of how you felt despondent, hopeless, or even anxious. Tell me a little about it in the comments if you can. And with that, I will leave you guys to yourself. I love you guys, be safe, and I’ll see you next time.

 

Sonic Levels